i missss...

SOPHIA GABRIELLE NICCUM :(((((((
marketing is so boring with out you :(
you better still call me so we can still hang out :)
i miss you & love you :)

....

brendan & i broke up
on saturday
we are just seeing how things are
we arent going to not just talk to eachother.
we are still friends
we will hang out here and there
so yeahh
after school i have to call sophia
so we can work on our project...
so yeahhh

?

what would people think if i was just gone?

i think it would make the sun shine brighter?

life would be easier?

why am i still here?

rip lauren mayer may 15 1993- december 1 2009

sooo i changedd brendans style & I LIKE IT :)

how balck friday turned good :)
amercian eagle :)
i love you baby :)
sorry for all my mistakes :)
please forgive me :)
take me back :)
you mean everything to me :)

why do i keep on getting pissed off?

why why why?
i want things to be how it used to bee.
well thats not how it seems like..
is 5 months just the worst relationship month ever & things end..
i dont want things to be.
i just get so pissed off at you sometimes..
idk why i just do. i get so pissed off & i want to punch myself & i cant concentrate?
wtf? i cant stand this anymore,
maybe people are right. we arnt made to be with eachother?

confused

confused.
what i want
who i want
what i should do to make life better
me & brendan are trying something new
giving eachother alot of trust & we do whatever we want.
hopefully this doesnt turn out bad
well this was a pointless thing
i just havent posted anything in a couple of days..

Thank you for letting me notice...

Thank you for letting me notice that god is always with me & you are always with me.
You made a huge impact in my life Brooke. Even tho you are gone it's upseting, but you got me closer to god.
& making me notice how helpful he is. Thank you brooke. I still wish this is a nightmare & you will come back & suprize us.
But sadly you are gone. & I just have to wait till let god take my life up there with you. Like he took yours , he wanted you up there Brooke
he took you at the place you loved the mountains & the beach just like you said in your journals. But we love you Brooke. We miss you so much.

Love you forever brookie,
Lauren



Rest in peace Brooke Lauren Scalise 8/4/96 - 7/13/09

why does love have to be painful
i loved my life about not even a year ago.
then that failed about 5 months later..
went threw the worst time of my life...
Suicide...
crying evernight...
had to stay a night in a hospitail..
like why would i have to go threw this...
this went on for 6-7 months..
THEN
june 22 came
most happiest day of my life.

brendan abbott came in my life..
i was the happiest person ever..
i knew this day was going to come..
i loved it..
even tho i got into fights with one of my best friends because she liked him & i didnt know..
& im sorry about that..
now we have been going out for 5 months now...

but.. recently there has been some problems
everything has been going down hill..
i dont like it..
drama..
storys that should of been told..
i fucked up..
i dont think i deserve to be with you..
i dont want to loose you but then i do..

i hate thinking about it..
it might happen one day, because of something but i dont want to know or think about it..
im sorry baby for everything i have done..
hopefully you forgive me someday..
love you so much...

.....what todo

Last night was bad.
Love how one of my best friends would say something about me to my boyfriend when I was sitting right there.
When the story she told was all wrong.
So that made my night horrible.
Idk how me & Brendan will work out anymore. I love him to death.
But he doesn't believe me.
Idk how I can date someone that doesn't trust me
& I just want things to be back to normal.
I love you.

LoMayne

me & sophia are now sharing channing tatum :)




BIRTHDAY PRESENT PLEASE :)



fuck yeahh :)

effff lifeee

bored as hell...
gay projectt...
lifee suckss....
drama drama drama....
relationships suckk.....
more drama....




EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, this is Sophia,
and Lauren is koooolllll :)