so back to blogging...

yeah well hey,
life has been rough,
lost a guy that i really do care about.
yeah i fucked up once
but that was the biggest mistake of my life
i cant stand not beeing with you anymore
im sorry for all the mistakes i have done.
i just wish we could get back together.
i miss you so much
i just want everything to be the same.
i really cant live with out you brendan.
please come back & make me happy again.

i missss...

SOPHIA GABRIELLE NICCUM :(((((((
marketing is so boring with out you :(
you better still call me so we can still hang out :)
i miss you & love you :)

....

brendan & i broke up
on saturday
we are just seeing how things are
we arent going to not just talk to eachother.
we are still friends
we will hang out here and there
so yeahh
after school i have to call sophia
so we can work on our project...
so yeahhh

?

what would people think if i was just gone?

i think it would make the sun shine brighter?

life would be easier?

why am i still here?

rip lauren mayer may 15 1993- december 1 2009

sooo i changedd brendans style & I LIKE IT :)

how balck friday turned good :)
amercian eagle :)
i love you baby :)
sorry for all my mistakes :)
please forgive me :)
take me back :)
you mean everything to me :)

why do i keep on getting pissed off?

why why why?
i want things to be how it used to bee.
well thats not how it seems like..
is 5 months just the worst relationship month ever & things end..
i dont want things to be.
i just get so pissed off at you sometimes..
idk why i just do. i get so pissed off & i want to punch myself & i cant concentrate?
wtf? i cant stand this anymore,
maybe people are right. we arnt made to be with eachother?

confused

confused.
what i want
who i want
what i should do to make life better
me & brendan are trying something new
giving eachother alot of trust & we do whatever we want.
hopefully this doesnt turn out bad
well this was a pointless thing
i just havent posted anything in a couple of days..